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My name is Nash and I'm 19 this year. I live in KL, Malaysia. I have many cats. I am extremely funny. I can be quiet at times, but actually I'm easily bored. A chocoholic.
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...written on 2005-12-06, @ 6:12 p.m.
I'm beginning to notice how fat I am when I looked in the mirror. I was so huge! My image didn't even fit the long mirror in my room. I'm starting to wonder will I ever be slim and live normally like other teens? Fat chance I say. If I just sit aroung and eat like a pig I can't. I'm thinking of diet and exercise. Huh...what a cliche. I heard myself saying that like a thousand times in my life! I'm sick of diets. Low fat, low cal, low carbs, low whatever.
You know, this time I'm thinking about starving. I've just started yesterday, where I only ate one meal: lunch. But at night I ate a whole bunch of crackers and peanuts. I guess I cant stand the urge of eating. But today I ate breakfast at 9.00 am with my friends as we end class a bit early. I don't want them to think that there's something wrong with me if I didn't go breakfast with them, so I tagged along. I ate a BIG breakfast, the fried rice in my plate was like a mountain! But I think I need that cause I probably won't be eating till tomorrow afternoon.
I really want this to work. Real bad. My teenage days are about to be over. I don't wanna be a sad teenager anymore. I wanna be free. I wanna live my teenage live to the fullest. But with my fat body I can hardly see my future. You know, with all those discrimination and all. I want to be slim real bad. At least until I can fit into XL ladies size! No I'm not too keen to be model like skinny, I just wanna lose some weight. I hope this time it'll work.
Keep my fingers crossed